January 2nd is the anniversary of my first love committing suicide.

Its like you are excited for the beginning of the year, a chance to do a massive reset on your life and the folks in it, but then bam! 48 hrs later you are brought back to a place mentally, where you almost didn’t survive the first time. Sometimes I have to really question if he is gone. Sigh. Life don’t owe me anything! I live my life to the fullest as there are folks who aren’t here to do so. As much as I wish I could wish Ali back to Life, I don’t possess those powers. If you are fighting depression you DO NOT have to fight it alone. I am here. I love you and I’ll help you get through it all.

Ali left behind a daughter.

Please take care one another.

Tristan Jonez.


This message is being written on December 16.

The idea of Christmas has greatly changed from what is was as a child. It used to be a representation of family, and love. Now unfortunately its just another day on the calendar. I’m assuming when I have a family of my own, the meaning of Christmas will once again change.

However I want to wish you and your family, a Very Happy Christmas Season. I’m thankful I have you guys to share in my highs and lows. Love you to life.


Tristan Jonez.