Out of shower thought, when you are an adult, people expect you to be an adult at all times, even with adults that are more adult than you. All that to say, no days off. Its like when I’m prepping for a flight and I’m the flight lead, I have to be ‘on’ at all times. There’s very little room for me to allow the perception to be anything other than what I need it to be. In those moments, yes, I create and hold the narrative. But when it comes to adulting, and navigating other adults its such a tricky thing cuz I know what I would do in that instant. However I cant navigate someone else. And here’s the issue at hand, so currently as I type, there’s some sort of discourse in my family. The why is unknown to me, but apparently I am ‘upset’ with an aunt. Although I haven’t chatted with ANYONE, and made this tidbit known, but today I received a phone call from my uncle, my aunts husband. Not in an aggressive manner, he wanted to get to the root of the problems, but its hard when the person in question doesn’t have one. As I’ve explained to him, I legitimately DO NOT BOTHER ANYONE! I stay in my little Chicago bubble, and play in my little bloogy blog. However I let my uncle get out all the things he wanted to say, without interruption.

Its just frustrating because as an adult when things arise, or I feel a way, I do my best to address it head-on BEFORE it has a chance to even get out of hand. I do not talk to folks in my family so If anyone should ever heard that I’ve said something the source should be questioned immediately. Uncle ended the call with my aunt would be calling sometime soon, but why not when she first felt or heard I had a problem? Once again I cant adult an adult, I can only allow folks to be themselves, and do whatever it is they would like to.

How’s your day going? Hopefully its a chill day for you!

Jonez.