Womb Things.

Continuation from my thoughts on the BET Show, Being Mary Jane, I know she had this burning desire to be a wife and mother, but mother was what she wanted with a passion. While watching I was thinking about my own feelings towards motherhood, and I KNOW I would kill the ‘job’ but I don’t have that without a doubt passion to become a mother. The Life I currently live doesn’t really support that of a child. I love being able to do whatever it is I’d like, without having to think of another human. I don’t have to be considerate of anyone, and I only have to take care of myself. Plus I don’t have to give up my window seat. 😉

I remember watching a documentary on Black women, motherhood and freezing their eggs, and the women who was interviewed all had the same in common; becoming a mother so bad, they wouldn’t allow to not bed one. Bot matter how much money, or time, or anything, they couldn’t see their lives not being a mother. That was their identity, although they had not been able to produce any children yet. While watching I realize I do not have that identity. If I don’t have a baby, it doesn’t make me feel like I am missing out on something. That’s just not my path.

Tristan.