Hi.

My site auto renewed so I figured I would actually use my site. It really is a comfort, knowing its here anytime I’d like to explore my thoughts. Currently I just gave myself a pedicure, so while I allow the polish to dry, I thought Id put my thoughts down. I’m listening to Tens most recent album, Idk If I’m a fan. Maybe I am, but I’m not sure. Well let me say, she definitely has some songs I absolutely love, but idk If I’d see her in concert.

I’m attending a wedding on Friday, and I have yet to find a dress. I know I know, but I’ll find something tomorrow. I have to! Plus I’ll have the whole day to search. Granted I’ve been looking online at Nordstrom’s, Bloomingdale and Macy’s but I haven’t pulled the trigger yet. However tomorrow feels like it’ll be a good day … to find a cocktail dress.

I’m ready to go on a date! I think. But I’m too scared to actually put myself out there to meet someone, because clearly my picker is broke. It funny cuz I live my life without fear of going somewhere new, or doing new things but mention dating and I’m like, keep it.

What am I to do?

Jonez.

Super CELL.

Close to the time it was announced, I was so hyped for Supercell to come out, and BOOM! It has!! I just finished watching the first episode and I am just so intrigued, and excited to watch the rest of the episodes. I do think I want to take notes, just like I did for Snowfall, even though I didn’t take any for the first episode. I had to get a feel for it first, but feelings are now a vibe! And you know it only adds that its filmed on location in London. AHHHHHHH!!! I am just so excited right now. British series usually have Six episodes, and I dont expect this to be any different. Also, they are going to end on a cliffhanger, I can just feel it.

Jonez.

Something silly has been keeping me up lately, and that’s my sadness around the art I will never experience. And yes, I know its a silly thing to even worry about, but its MY silly thing. There was an exhibit, several if I’m being honest, that I wasn’t able to visit before it ended, and theta got me to thinking. I know its probably impossible to see All, even if I was rich, and had access to private jets, as I saw fit. Because there will be an abundance of ‘one night only’ affairs, and I know I wouldn’t be able to visit them all. There’s only so many hours in a day.

Plus, I am super fortunate because the amount of Art experiences I’ve been able to partake in, should be enough. And it is enough. This was just an outloud daydream? Idk, its something. But the fact that for museums, in my top five, two currently are outside of the US, with a potential being in Spain. My thoughts are not only on Art visually, but on music, and street art, in all forms.

Maybe I should start researching, and see what things I can place on my must see list. I also, dont want to give myself extra pressure. So we’ll see, but I’ll keep y’all updated.

Jonez.

BTTF.

Back to the future … The Musical!

Hear me out tho? It was so good! The songs beside the overture wasn’t really memorable but they should win all the awards for lighting, set design, and any other award for technical shit! It really felt as if the movie had come to Life! This was another lottery win, but my second show on Broadway in NYC. Wait, it was actually my third show on Broadway! Whoaaaaa! Lord knows this is an expensive hobby.

Back to Back to the Future, if you have the opportunity to see it, you should. I won’t spoil it for you but it’s almost as if you can reach out and “touch.” There was two specialty drinks, the first had peach schnapps, so I went with the second drink, The 88. Can’t tell you besides a double of whiskey, what the drink actually had in it, but it was strong! As I sipped it, I FELT the hair growing on my chest. (Hehe)

Tristan J.

FYI Venting.

Can I complain for a bit?

I’m so sick of humans. Sick! I just want to meet people who value honesty. Who value communication! Omitting the full scope of what’s happening is lying! In my next life I really want to meet people who are open, upfront and direct. If we’re having an interaction why do I have to read between the fucking lines? Why can’t you just tell me the whole & full story? My gawd.

I thought I wasn’t asking for too much when I asked folks to properly communicate. However the joke is on me because apparently I’ve been asking for wayyyyyyyy too much. Leaving out bits, that I’m going to find out later is insulting to my intelligence. I thought the minimum in friendships was communication cuz If we aren’t chatting what are we doing? Fucking a.

People get on my goddamn nerves. Just cuz I don’t always speak on it, doesn’t mean I didn’t peep it babes.

Jonez.

Mothers Day.

Since my mother has been gone for 21 years, mothers day, don’t really bother me anymore. Not like it used to, but its still a holiday I don’t celebrate. This year was a bit different as a friend hit me with a voice note early in the day, acknowledging the significance of today, and making sure I’m taking care of myself. It’s nice to have people who genuinely give af about you, AND show it. Although I’m still building, its nice to have a community, no matter how small.

Jonez.

Classic Greek

Last night I won the Broadway lottery for Mamma Mia, and I see why it’s a cult classic. Or why it has a cult following. It was a really good show, especially with cast. The ensemble did a wonderful job! The principal cast was singing down! It legit looked like friends just on stage having fun. Since it was my first time seeing it, Idk if this crew’s chemistry was just that good or if all the productions are similar to this, whatever the reason, I love!

While I write this, I’m listening to the soundtrack from 1999. Falling asleep, but in my defense it is 3:07a. I believe the show will be in Chicago until Mid May so do yourself a favor, and see it.

Jonez

Tragedy.

What tragedy or celebration warrants a phone call? What event has to happen for you to call your friend, fam or whomever. I KNOW we all generally text because it’s easier really but are phone calls obsolete? Although I don’t think I’m extra, I know my actions are sometimes seen as a rarity. I’m going to call for specific and special occasions. I’m going to send a card to commemorate the memory or event. At this point everyone in the World is so extremely busy, but when it comes to your friends, who do you make time for?

SideNote, I don’t do anything because I want it in return. My intentions and actions are always pure but It’s tiring to keep doing and doing and doing for others, and those same folks pay you dust.

Tristan J.

Horizon.

Tonight’s movie was Deepwater Horizon, and it always makes me cry. Its such hard watch, knowing its based on true horrific events, and knowing 11 people died. Its hard to swallow that none of the executives were found guilty of their actions. AND the oil spilled into the Gulf for 87 days! I was reading articles on what experts believed could’ve happened to the break down of the controlled events, after the fact. Just a tragedy.

Jonez.

Geraldine Day.

April 29th is always such a weird day to remember. Before 2003 it held no significance, was just another day. It’s so wild how one day, a day that means nothing, can really hold such memories, especially when they aren’t the best ones. I sometimes refer to this day as Geraldine’s Day, but its the anniversary of her death. 21 Years Ago was the last time I laid eyes on my parent. The last day I touched her hands, hugged her, was in her presence. I have lived for 21 years without the person who gave a fuck about me. When I think back, I really cant believe it. Still cant believe it.

I used to wonder if she was proud of me. Of my life choices. Of where I was, whenever I was thinking that thought. Of who I had become as a person, as a woman. Of how I decided to live my life. I do think she would be proud of who I am. How I carry myself, and how I don’t look like ANYTHING I’ve been thru. Cuz y’all I’ve been through some shit.

Every year my niece and I do something. And this year is no difference, I’ll be in Charlotte celebrating in whatever way. Last year it was a Tea Experience in New York. If all we did, was eat cereal in the house, that would be more than enough for me.

Tristan Jonez.

Ghost.

Cuz I tell y’all my business, but y’all. So I attempted to kinda sorta chat with someone, and babes, it went bad, horrid, in fact. It was long distance, but I’m cool with that since I fly, its no biggie to me. And things were moving along real cute, but then we had a bout of miscommunication, and they said I didn’t respond in a way they expected, and they aren’t used to that. So to make peace, I apologized. Sidenote, I will never mind apologizing to someone If I hurt their feelings, because we cant debate on how we made someone feel. I can only explain my intentions. I didn’t really appreciate how the energy changed, and they did nothing to try to quell it.

About a week goes by, and the energy is still the same. I’ve already apologized, so why aren’t we moving forward? One thing I’m not going to do is, press someone for information about how they are feeling. You are grown. If there’s a problem, then speak up. Also I don’t want anyone to feel obligated to chat because we started as friends. Its always risky turning a friendship into something more, but that’s the risk you take. At this point, they haven’t returned my text message or my phone call so I’m going to leave it where it landed. Cuz if they wanted to, they would’ve.

Jonez.

Spoty Fi.

Daylist from Spotify, I feel like we’ve chatted about this before but if not, Spotify, creates daily playlist based on your listening, and adds songs/artist they believe you would like, while giving them creative titles. I love em! Spotify knows and loves me down, on a regular basis but with this new feature, they’ve outdone theirselves. There’s an option where you can save the playlist, instead of creating a million list, I just copy the link into my notes app so I can listen to that playlist if that’s how I’m feeling later on.

What’s funny is the emo, country, granola eating playlist have been my fav as of late.

Jonez.

Do you utilize Spotify?