For the past few weeks, Ive stopped to take an inventory of how I interact with people, and how they in turn interact with me. Nothing I do, is ever because I am looking for something in return from others. NEVER! I am always my friends biggest cheerleader, biggest supporter, because I know they out here grinding to make their dreams come true, so why wouldn’t I support them? I am not always able to support their businesses with monetary gains but I’ll plug and plug on social media. My audience might not be large, but its powerful and I am consistent.
However, I am tired of giving and giving, and never really seeing those SAME folks, going hard for me. Supporting me. Assisting with promoting me on social media. Hell, just a kind word or greeting. Truly be interested in what’s going on with me. I had a ‘friend’ who I haven’t spoken to in months, hit me up to promote her business … girl, Fuck you and that business. Of course, I didn’t say that, I just ignored her request but It was utterly ridiculous. Like Boo, Oh you remember me now?
I say this to say, Its a miracle to not turn into a bitter bitty but you can’t let the way other folks behave cause you to wilt. Don’t let people turn you into someone you aren’t. I know it gets annoying but keep it pushing, and keep searching until you find your tribe!
I’m tired of being me, but I don’t want to be anyone else, Ever.
I get tired of folks seeking and using my light, my energy for themselves. Depleting, taking all my gifts, and failing to replenish. Some humans just know how to drain the Life out of you. Sidenote; I don’t think I’ve been kind to myself lately. I KNOW I need a beach, I know I need to feel the sand between my fingers, on my body and I have yet to give my soul what its’ seeking.
How often do you retreat to give yourself what you need? Do you listen to your body/soul when it says Stop? Go? Rest?
Be Careful who you choose to help. Some folks are only looking out for themselves, and they are willing to do or say anything to receive what they believe they should have. I have learned the hard way several times and yet it wasn’t until recently that I honestly learned my lesson.
I will put my needs above anyone else’s. I will placed myself first. If helping you does not benefit me, then my answer will be no. If attempting to make your life easier, will make mine harder by default, then the answer is no. I used to be scared of if I said No, will I make this person mad but now… who the hell cares! They will surely get over it, and move on to the next ‘victim’. I am not a punching bag for those who need something, nah. That’s done.
Remember, don’t go out of your way for people, who wouldn’t cross the street for you.