“What do you like to do for fun?”

I fucking hate that question! Seriously, is there anything else you can ask? My Answer is usually generic, something along the lines of ‘I’m all about travel, the arts, and most definitely food’. I love it when a man, can just hold a conversation, I don’t need twenty one questions. This is the only time I am go with the flow, I allow the conversation to go wherever it may go. I like when a man knows how to navigate his way through a conversation.

Tristan Jonez

Sex And the city

I don’t know if Sex and the City, television series, is supposed to be binged but besides the occasional one liner, these four women are annoying af. Well, Samantha Jones doesn’t really annoy me, but Charlotte, Carrie and Miranda, OMG, HELP ME! I just started season four, and I am not sure I’m going to be able to get through the rest of the series. Yes, this is my first time watching all the episodes, so maybe they are meant to be watched WHILE you live your daily life, and since I’m still in quarantine, I just watch them all willy nilly. Only Samantha knows exactly who she is, and lives in her purpose, and KNOWS WHO SHE IS. The rest of the ladies, put on airs, for whomever they might be dating, which never works out cuz at some point they have to be themselves.

I know, I know, I might get kicked out of womanhood for being truly annoyed by these women but I am sorry. I think I’ve learned my lesson to stretch out the time in between each episode cuz WTF! But the fashion is on point, so there’s that.

Tristan Jonez.

According to … Kiana lede

“Now you feeling guilty, that’s your conscious, Cant you tell a bitch is fed up with your nonsense.” -Kiana Lede

“I know how to be accountable for everything Ive done […] I know I fucked up once and its bad, so I cant front. Guess I’ll just smoke this blunt.” -6LACK

This is not taking account for your actions, telling me you know HOW doesn’t make you accountable for them. List them out, speak on what you’re actually taking accountability for. Giving me a line about it means absolutely nothing to me. Apologize, give me changed behavior, actually growing and working thru your fuck up is what’s going to make me stay, or possibly come back. I know your tactics so doing what you’ve done is going to work, especially when a woman is fed up.

Tristan Jonez

Lyrics from Second Chances ft. 6LACK

Karma Karma Karma

Do you believe in Karma? Do you believe that EVERYTHING comes back around? The good, the bad, and most certainly the ugly? I believe in Karma, always have and in some situations I was able to see Karma at its finest. I don’t always how long karma takes to be completed, but I live in the fact, that Karma will eventually come around. I want to think I live my life in a way, not to bring negative karma on myself but please believe Karma has exacted her revenge on me, more than once. However even in those times, You have to just live in that moment, accept what is, and move forward.

Has Karma ever impacted your life, negatively? Positively? Tell me about it.

Tristan Jonez.

Kiana Lede

Listen! Listen!

When I suggest an album, an artist, you need to listen to them immediately! Kiana Lede, is one of those artist you should already be listening to. Even before her album KIKI dropped, but I won’t hold it against you if you haven’t listened to this Queen. BUT If you don’t run and listen to her soon, we are going to have an issue. With features from Ari Lennox, Lucky Daye, Arin Ray, Col3trane, and more, this is such a R&B album, with tracks you’ll want to repeat for the Summer especially the song Labels featuring Moneybagg yo and BIA. I think I am going to do a “According to Kiana Lede” section because we need to break down these lyrics, including my favorite song Second Chances.

Tristan Jonez.

Tox ic

Regardless of their title, IF they are toxic, leave them right where they are. I’ve heard the excuse, ‘Well that’s still your parent’, so many times, to which I now say, SO WHAT! I am no longer accepting that, as logical reasoning as to why I should continue to allow someone into my life. I cant control anyone’s action but my own, however If I am telling you, the things you are doing is causing harm, and you continue on, then you’re blatantly expressing to me, that you could care less about me. So you’ll no longer be a part of my World.

Do you keep toxic folks in your life because of their title/position to you?

Tristan Jonez.

orphaned.

Its so extremely hard not having a mother. One of the hardest things in life to accept, even after fifteen years. Ive spent half my life without one, so I should be a bit more used to this feeling but being in isolation, without a friend to hug, makes being orphaned even more hard to handle. As strong as I am, or better yet as strong as people THINK I am, I’m not. Theres been cracks forming for some time now, and I’m doing all I can to keep moving forward but today feels like a sad day.

Please Remember to check on those people in your life that looks/feels like they have it all together. We Don’t.

Jonez.

Art Q (BWI)

If Ive never mentioned it before, Baltimore Washington International Airport has some of the best Airport Art Ive come across. And its forever rotating! True for most travelers, the rotating exhibits won’t impact them much, but as someone who is ALWAYS in the airport its nice to have new artwork to admire. Another aspect of BWI, there are at least three areas to view artwork prior to reaching TSA, so if you’re dropping someone off, you’ll be able to enjoy the Views while walking them to security. The photos displayed were taken en route to concourse A.

Tristan Jonez

“God’s Plan for your life begins at the end of how you thought it should have been.”

The life I am currently looks like nothing I ever thought of. I still remember when I was younger, I would conjure what my future would look like at 21, at 25, at 30. And in my wildest imagination, my life is nothing I imagined. A flight Attendant? Living in Texas? The literal World, at my finger tip … Never. I don’t want to think it was for a lack of an imagination, I was willing to take risk, and go places I’d never been before, but I thought I had a plan. The life definitely turned upside down when my mother died, but I would still ‘plan’ for a future I could imagine. Chicago, even then, was the place I wanted to be, and eventually I would get there.

IF I remember, my plan was to finish high school, and continue on to college, which I did. I studied for a year before life happened, and I left college, eventually going back (and stopping) for the next five years. I dabbled in a few jobs, trying to find my footing, settling on being in a people setting. Then boom, I’m in aviation, and the ability to learn ‘hands-on’, to explore in person, the places I had read about, just made sense for my life. After almost ten years in aviation, I don’t know If I want to be anywhere else.

So whether its God’s Plan, The Universe’s Plan, Allah’s Plan, or Whichever higher power you believe in, Ive learned creating a hardcore plan, just doesn’t work. Stay flexible, Go where the trip may lead you but Always enjoy the Ride!

Jonez

Almost a Mother.

Originally Written October 19, 2019.

As I fly to my destination, my mind thinks about what life would look like if I didn’t miscarry when I was five months pregnant, I was twenty two. My daughter would be gearing up to turn eleven, as my due date was in November. 

Melody Marie Washington. I’m not sure if I’ve ever revealed her name outside of telling my family. We named her Melody cuz she was the heartbeat, she was the song that brought joy to us, especially on the days where the two of us, my ex and I, wasn’t enough. Ultimately loosing her, may have been a blessing in disguise as I’ve gone on to do things I may not have done if I was a mother. As I get older, I still randomly think about her, how I would’ve been as a mom, and will I ever get the opportunity to become a parent. 

However I do smile at the thought of knowing my mom, has a buddy in heaven with her, and she’s taking very good care of my Melody. 

Jonez 

Art Q (STL)

So since we’ve all been pretty much quarantined, there’s so much art that I haven’t been able to view. Although I am in isolation now, when I was flying, I was truly keeping my eye out for artwork in the airports I had to fly to and through. Today, we are going to take a spin in STL aka St. Louis Lambert International Airport, which happens to be one of my favorite cities. Artist Mike Schwartz, brought to the STL airport via The Lambert Art and Culture Program, their mission to elevate the visitor experience and uplift regional pride […] Schwartz wanting to create a personalized baby gift for the upcoming birth of his grandson, taught himself to make hand-embroidered squares for a baby quit. Upon the completion of two more quilts for two more grandsons, Schwartz realized he’d be able to extend his range of what he could be able to do with framing the embroidered squares since rust, and being laundered wouldn’t be a concern.

Upon looking at the artwork, what formed shapes, images do you see?

Jonez.