When did we get into the habit of glossing over the ‘struggle’? I find that folks are so eager to show that they are winning, that it creates unrealistic expectations so when you do lose, personally, you lose your fucking mind. We know, with all forms of social media, you have to keep up airs, stay put on but isn’t that exhausting? Now don’t get me wrong, who the hell wants to solely focus on failures? Nobody. That’s a depressing place to be, but shit happens, right?
I want to create a place of equal balance. A place where we celebrate the lows just as fiercely as the highs. Now maybe I won’t be the actual person to create this haven I’m looking for but i do want to play my part. So although I do believe I vocalize my lows and highs equally, I will be more aware of the content I put out. Just as often as I scream men ain’t shit but fuck boys, I’ll turn around and showcase men who have the qualities that’ll make your knees buckle.
A little over seven weeks ago, I became a flight attendant. Most days I can’t believe it, and the other days when I can believe it, I really don’t. I really wake up wondering if I’m actually stuck in an episode of Twilight Zone! (Remember that show?) I tucked becoming a flight attendant in the depths of my mind, because I was so comfortable being a Gate Agent with Delta that I didn’t consider really applying for the position. I’ve always said why would I want to be ‘stuck’ on a plane with passengers especially when they would behave so poorly when on the ground.
I can’t remember applying, Obviously I did but I have no recollection of doing so. What I do remember, my niece Essence pushing me to apply. I even turned my airline down three times, but now we’re here and I couldn’t be more happy!
When something is meant for you, the universe will conspire to make it happen.
Why wait for 2018? Do it Now.
Recently I listened to a video snippet, and the author told me, why wait until 2018 to make the changes you’d like to make?
And shorty, is right! Why am I going to wait until 2018 to start fresh, when everyday I wake up translates to a new beginning? With the rise of the sun, I am able to decide who I want to be and who I want in my World. Everyone’s manual for living looks different, so I have to find the instructions that work best for me. Find the people who work best, with my vibe, who brings out the best in me. Letting go is extremely hard for me, especially since my mother died. I hold on to folks tight, I look past their wrongdoings at my own detriment and I allow them to stay in my World. I find them sucking the life from me, and once I’ve hit rock bottom only then do I let them go.
This situation, this friendship, this love is NO longer serving me. Its no Longer allowing me to grow, no longer allowing me to be the best version of myself, no longer making me happy. I wish you the best, take care, thank you. I’ve found that speaking this outloud makes the transition easier. Can people change, sure they can, but for my own peace, they have to change elsewhere. Protecting my own energy is my top priority, everyone can and will be second my own self. Eff how they feel.
I’ve had a few light stealers, and I’ve let each and everyone of them go. God Bless ‘Em
No matter what city I visit, I am drawn to the art museum in that city. Its almost as if my soul is being called by the artist who have painted such masterpieces. San Francisco Museum of Modern Art is a must see, must experience museum that I throughly enjoyed. Im not sure if museums can be feel good places, but SFMOMA surely was. I found myself falling in love again with Pop, Minimal and Figurative art, and Andy Warhol has captured the essence of my being. Roy Lichtenstein is another absolute favorite of mine! Can I tell you how I’m so not a comic book imaging fan but there’s something about HIS work that just captures my whole entire heart? His work just gives me all the feels I can handle, makes me so warm and fuzzy!
When I tell you I was on the brink of tears, tears y’all, Gerhard Richter had me feeling like I NEEDED his painting with me, in my home. Lord know its priceless, but If I could afford it, I would have placed my bet, then and there. I spent at minimum twenty minutes in a serious trans. I forgot where I was, and if it wasn’t for the scores of people visiting the museum, I would’ve taken off my shoes, and laid out as If I was watching television. Just incredible. I urge you all to visit the museum when you have a chance and just be. Clear out all the noise, and just sit with it. Sit with it as if you’re visiting with an old friend.
SideNote: Anything Oil on Canvas, Abstract or German artists I just fall in love.
The Best Seat Will forever be the window seat. I feel weightless every single time an aircraft takes off, appreciating where I’ve been and having gratitude for where I will travel to makes living life worth it. I can’t imagine who I’d be without the opportunity to visit certain countries/communities. Every time I experience a new place, a new part of myself is unlocked.
If you don’t realize, I hold travel in high regard. You’ll never reach your highest level of enlightenment without travel. No excuses, Make it happen!
I’ve searched high and low for a nude that would compliment my chocolate brown skin, and after plenty of trials and errors I’ve finally found it! NYX’s brand is one of my absolute favorites currently. I’ve always appreciated the lip glosses because it gives me not only a dose of Shine, it’s so very pigmented. I’ve blended Praline and Beyond Basic, which is their new slip tease full color lip oil. Because I am a chocolate cutie, I find that I don’t need much Beyond Basic. I first use Praline as a base coat of sorts, then I dab about three dots on my bottom lip and I blend my lips together then Voila! Magic is created! Also in this look I use my NYX’s bright idea illuminating stick in Sun Kissed Crush on my Cupid’s bow.
Tell me what to think? Simple but Chic!
So I went to my first Music and Arts Festival, and I loved every minute!!
SideNote: I wonder how they decide who’ll perform, the order and the length of their set. It was a good flow to the schedule.
At first my only reason for attending was to sample and eat as much food as I could get my hands on. Of the three day festival, I could only get Saturday off from work, but getting to see Tory Lanez in person was the icing. So much energy! I’ll forever respect him. LL Cool J has had hits that I definitely rock with but not enough for me to see him in person, well he brought out Q-Tip, and I nearly lost my mind!! I opted not to see Future, and saw Big Gigantic. Didn’t know them before but I throughly enjoyed their set. They did a EDM collab with Biggie Smalls, so how could I not love them?
However I’m highly upset I missed Big Boi’s set. I had a killer migraine that morning, and just couldn’t get it to settle down quickly enough. I experienced Erykah Badu, but felt she was too regal to record. The food and drink option was plentiful, and I left feeling full and fulfilled.
This was the second year of The Meadows and I will surely be attending next year, all three days! Have you guys ever been?
Every time I took the focus off myself and my goals, I took a Loss. When I started focusing on the people around me and how I could be a better friend, a better lover, a better whatever, I took a loss. I’m learning that I have to be all those things to myself first.
I don’t play soccer, but I would believe the concept is the same, if you’re a player and you take your eye off the ball, you lose. You open yourself up to someone coming in and stealing you shine, stealing your play, basically stealing your ball. Don’t take your eyes off the ball!
As far as I know this is my only version of this life, So I’m going to make sure I kill it!
There are too many people out here willing to give you everything you’ve been looking for, you do not have to chase anyone for anything! What one person is not giving there are others who will go above and beyond. Find those folks. Let those folks find you. As dry as my phone currently is, I’m done chasing people. I’d rather have a dry ass phone then have to deal with nonsense, especially from a grown up.
If y’all didn’t notice I’m trying to glow up. Anything less than that is NOT for me. I’m trying this new routine where I put myself first and anyone willing to be apart of my World will respect that, and place themselves where needed.